Who would have thought

Have you ever thought about how different your life would be if you didn't get inspiration or counsel from the Lord?  I do often. If I were left to my own desires and plans, I would not be the mother of 4 young boys.  I might not be the mother of any body.  Not that I don't love my kids and now, I couldn't imagine my life without them, but it was by no means my idea to have kids.  Adam and I had this great plan to be done having kids after Asher was born. In fact I was prepared to have my tubes tied when they delivered Asher.  But as the time got closer and I thought more about it, and counselled with the Lord, I came to the conclusion that the Lord had a different idea. Asher is 10 months old right now and lately, all I can think about is having another baby. I don't want a baby, but I know that we are suppossed to have another one.  I think that Adam feels the same way but he won't say it. 


We are suppossed to be going to Disney World for Christmas this year with the whole Cowan family and if I were to get pregnant soon, I would be due the beginning of the year, which would make it impossible for me to go anywhere for Christmas this year. That puts us in a rough spot. Adam keeps telling me we have to wait a few months so we can go on our trip, but I think when the Lord counsels, we should follow. 


Tonight when we were reading scriptures, we read a verse that really stuck out to me. In Jacob chapter 4 verse 10 it reads, "...seek not to counsel the Lord, but to take counsel from his hand. For behold, ye yourselves know that he counseleth in wisdom, in justice, and in great mercy over all his works." I am pretty sure that doesn't mean that when the Lord counsels me to have a baby soon it doesn't mean to tell him I will but not for another year.  So far the things we have felt inspired to do have worked out. Right now, I have no idea how I will take care of another child, and I was really looking forward to having just one kid home all the time next school year, but what ever the Lord wills, I will try my hardest to follow.  I need all the blessings I can get. And maybe for Adam's sake, if we do as we are asked, he will get his little girl.  Only time will tell.


So I guess this is me saying that it is baby making time.  Wish us luck.